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Today I learned that my cousin died.

Posted by Skeik - December 24th, 2009


Well, to start off, most of my family lives in Georgia and New Jersey. Most holidays we go and visit them, but this one we decided against it. Money and all that stuff. So we're sitting here, waking up on Christmas Eve, and my sister calls. My sister lives down in Georgia too. My mom starts talking to her and she says that my 2nd cousin died by cancer this morning.

My cousin, Dominique, had a battle against cancer for some time. She had leukemia and after seeing her go through chemotherapy and all the troubles that ensued, they decided against putting on her chemo again. When they took her for a checkup, they found that the leukemia was in remission. I can't tell you the full story, but she had another type of cancer that she needed treatment for, and that's what got to her this morning. I don't know what to do honestly.

To be truthful, I wasn't extremely close to my cousins down in Georgia. Since 2003, the most I've seen them is from going down south to visit every other holiday. And it was nice, you know. Being surrounded by family, all the kids around. So when the news hit me, I dunno how I felt, or how I should feel. 30 minutes ago when I heard my mom get the news she was almost in tears, and now I hear her joking around with a co-worker on the phone. I hope to God none of my family ever finds themselves reading this.

But I'm not trying to be judgmental. Cause I'm here doing the same thing. My baby cousin dies and my first response is to write a blog about it. I guess what I'm trying to say is it's funny how people react to things. It's almost as if my family KNOWS we should be depressed and grieving, but it's not truly sincere. I'm not saying I didn't love my cousin, it's just that it feels wrong to hear news like this and go right back to watching House on Hulu as if nothing happened. I loved my cousin just as much as I love the rest of my family.


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condelence.......may her good deeds be on our minds.R.I.P.

You can't trick yourself to care more than you do.

At least you should be honest with how you feel.

I feel similar, but for some reason death doesn't make me cry even if I want to..

I got news my cousin(pilot) died as his plane malfunctioned and crashed. We sat on the couch in shock for a bit and then I went right back to playing MGS2.

I felt awful, but I couldn't really do anything about it.

Your heart is in the right place.
my condolences to you and your loved ones.

K.B

People, for the most part, don't tend to want everyone to be miserable just because they died. I sure as hell wouldn't. Besides, honesty is far more valuable than phony emotions.

If I die, I don't want someone who I hated or who hated me at my funeral. I'd prefer honesty about it. People think pretending to care is respectful, but it's way more disrespectful than anything.

Anyway, I'm sorry for your loss, nobody's ever really happy about death.

my condolences....remember her and she'll live on in our hearts and minds

R.I.P dominique

i hope he dies again ahahahahahha fagort

You contradicted yourself multiple times in that last paragraph.

Sorry about your cousin. ;(

He's in a better place.

Sorry for your loss, man.

It sounds like she fought hard, it's too bad the other type of cancer got her.

Obviously the best thing you can do is support the rest of your cousins as much as possible while they come to terms with losing Dominique.

hahahahahaha!!!!!XD

Same situation here I even came to see mine who has a short expectancy and everyone here cares more than me. It's better not to visit, everyone is so moody and I'm here with mixxed feelings but I don't really care. Sorry for your loss Matt. And Joe is a faggot

The mind and heart take things in odd ways. When I heard my grandfather and an aneurysm in his brain, I laughed. My heart ached and inside my head I was screaming in pain, but I just started laughing. Sometimes events and emotions take awhile to sink in. It doesn't really hit us until we let our guard down. Just know that He has a plan for us all and that not matter what happens in this life it happens for a reason. I hope you find peace with yourself and have a good holiday.

Take care.

~Chase

my condolences....also, wise words my friend, wise wise words